I am feeling really really shit. I feel like the only way I will ever be able to forget about having children or not having children would be if I were to die. I actually think being dead would be preferable to how I feel now and so I recon things must be pretty bad, eh?
I am sure this will pass but I truly truly believe I have no one to talk to and any one I do talk to just doesn't understand anyway. With their lovely perfect lives and their retarded attempts to make me feel better.